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Well, I'm an official GT alumni now. Still no job yet.
Graduation
was very LONGGGGG!!! In fact I didn't stay through the end, no one did
as a matter of fact. I don't know why they had to combine everyone in
one day. 2,200 graduates, in 3 hours...ummm try longer than that.
That's a huge class. I almost wonder if I should of graduated in Fall
or Summer, when it's shorter. But anyways, it still felt good going up
to shake G. Wayne's hand (GT President) and posing in front of the
Ramblin' Wreck (which is a 1930 Ford Model A sports coupe, painted Gold
and White; Our Pride and Joy). I'll try to post them later once they
send them.
The first week just chilling out at home hasn't
been too bad, in fact it's been kinda relaxing. The days do seem to be
going fast, which is good at least. I definitely hate it when it's
slow and boring.
I've applied to like over 30 Architecture
firms. Some have replied with NO while others have just no responded
at all yet, so I can't give up yet. worse case scenario now, is having
to work something unrelated until the end of the summer at least. Most
of the summer interns would of gone back to school by then, hopefully
opening some slots. It's a plan. i just wish I knew that I didn't
have to do it this way. But hey, I only have the rest of my life to
work my dream job, right?
But in other ares of life, I may
decide to give the Online dating thing a try again. A while ago, I
sort of tried it out, but didn't really get anywhere with anybody; and
I just didn't have the time to really do it with school. Now that
obstacle has passed, and I have a bit more time on my hands, I figure
why not? I'll try it again.
I think it would be nice to meet
some new people, that I otherwise would or wouldn't meet at school. I
mean there weren't enough girls at our school anyway. I like the City
of Atlanta's odds a bit better than Tech's. We'll see what happens.
I'm more interested in building a friendship before a more serious
relationship.
In terms of my faith, I've been really thinking
a bit more about it, then I usually would otherwise. I mean I did
decide to live this life, right. But honestly, a part of me has me
wondering where I'm going with this. while another part of me is
confident in what I've learned, and what I've been becoming in the past
few months. I can never abandon my faith, but at the same time I'm not
sure if I can "ryde or die" with it niether. I don;t know. It may be
another one of those things that has to develop with time.
Ok, enough rambling, I'll wait another few days to let my mind build up a bit.
Later, folks.
Oh and Here's what the Ramblin' Wreck looks like to those who may not know.
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| Well, my hard time served at this "institution" is almost over. I will graduate on May 3, 2008 with A "Bachelor's of Science IN Architecture". I stress the "in" because this is the first year that the degrees will say it like this. It used to say "Bachelor's of Science with a major in Architecture" and in other words means that you have been awarded a just a generic Bachelor's degree that so happens to be focused in architecture. I don't know, it sounds like a big difference to me.
But I'm sort of anxious for these 2.5 weeks to come and go so that I can start a new phase of my life. Even though I know I've heard a ton of folks say that "work sucks" and "it's so boring", and "it's not like school" but I mean at least you get a pay check and not a tuition bill. And After 5pm, there's no HOMEWORK!! I still need to land a job first before I can actually get real hyped, because it would really suck to be unemployed, and with about $1500 of immediate debt; not including the $22,500 that I will start paying back for loans in 7 months. But I have been busy interviewing, and job seeking, along with finishing all my loose ends with schoolwork.
Yeah, I really don't think that I'm going to miss Tech that much until at least a year into work. I don't know. The plan still is to go to Grad school after working at least a year, but the suffering economy and stricter admissions rules and requirements may make that difficult. This next President better get us out of this. Alot of us didn't get in to any grad schools at all, even with the good GPA's. But I don't know, even w/o grad school, I still have options. I just won't be making the big $$$$$ that quickly.
But mostly, everything else is going ok, still single, but not really complaining. It's kinda funny how seeing other couples makes you either want or not want to be in a relationship; depending on how people deal with their situations. I know for a fact that there are going to be good and bad parts of any relationship, the real zinger is going to be how a pair gets through the tough times more than the happy ones, at least that's how I think of it. I feel like I still have alot ahead of me in my life. I'm only 23. I still want to see what life is like away from North America. On second thought, away from the Southeastern United States. I've never been west of New Orleans, and north of Washington DC. So, I still have quite a bit of terrirory to cover.
So I guess that's pretty much it for now, I really don't have too much to write about nowadays, and I'm tried of being so negative all the time. So many of my more recent entries seem so dismal. But even though I felt that way before, I don't regret writing anything, because at least I had some sort of outlet to release some of my steam. I am thankful for it.
As a goal now, I want to start going ahead and making some changes and still try to enjoy myself. I want to start exercising again, and start to build some muscle mass and gain at least 20-25 lbs. Right now I'm at 130, @ 5'-7". That's pretty scrawny. I can even run my fingers deep into my rib cage, and can probably tap on them like a xylophone. I wish time wasn't a factor, but maybe I won't be too exhausted from work to actually start back up again.
Sorry it's been so long since I've written something. so much dust on my page. And I'm remembering how much I enjoyed reading some of these blogs. But anyways, I hope to write a bit more about my life, once I finish my last few weeks of servitude to this place. This school certainly makes sure you have something to stay up all night for...more than times 2 nights. But at the same time, I've have a college experience here that I wouldn't take back for nothing.
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| Well, I really don't know what to say after not wanting to say anything for so long.
I've been thinking. thinking a lot. about a ton of things. (yeah I know I'm rambling, but bare with me).
Things on my Plate right now, at this moment, to turn into possible chapters:
1. money (lack there of): debts owed to the gov't this year in the thousands, no I'm not making this up.
2. job search: getting where I want/need to be, without regrets.
3. friends: more specifically who or what group outweighs the other.
4. thought of Self: in terms of comparison to others. in comparison to God. in comparison to the world
5. family: the dramatic burdens and hidden blessings (seriously HIDDEN...meaning that I really may need to be reminded why there need to be positives, as with everything else)
6. thoughts of self part 2: ISOLATION....the main tackle of my life experience at this moment. If I never felt any more alone, even with so many blessings, as now at this point. and the future seems to be just as dark as the past.
7. Thoughts of self part 3: Constant entanglement by the roots of hopelessness...aka depression
8. God and Christianity: and why they are not feeling like the same thing anymore.
I really don't know where to start, but at least I can look at all my negatives all in one list. we'll see how it goes.
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| Been meaning to post this a while ago. Just never got around to it. More to come soon.
Ok, I just have to get this off my spirit. I don’t think anyone could begin to
understand it (then again, I know someone always will). But anyways, this week I’ve been really
thinking about a leading force in the relationship department. I have been blessed thus far to meet some
wonderful young women that I could start out healthy relationships with. Some of my thoughts about them have been
physical, but at the same time I feel my spirit wanting to look more into their
hearts more than anything. Because when
it all comes down to it, God knows what I’m REALLY after. Too much of the love I have seen in this
“world” has been nothing but vain, artificial, or one-sided love which is
really cliché. How do you REALLY love
someone passionately? True love, heart felt love, Holy Trinity based love is
not portrayed nearly enough in the worldly realm.
I talking to this one girl (Girl A), who is amazing in the
sense of her mind and values her spirituality and that’s all I really want to
talk about mostly. I can also see how
she internalizes the things that happen around her in her heart and she is
conscious of them. She is a very
friendly person and always seems to think of me on occasion, which is really
nice to be noticed by someone like that. She also knows how to have a good
time, despite of whatever life throws at her.
But I also know this other girl (Girl B) that I can talk to
about almost anything else, except maybe spirituality. I’ll admit, I was physically attracted to her
when I first saw her, but at the same time she was really nice to talk to, and
we have already shared some parts of our lives with each other. She
does have some idea about where she wants to take her life in the future. The intelligence is definitely there. She does have a heart, don’t get me wrong. But
there are some parts to her life, that I can’t really relate to; (like socially
with Clubing, drinking, and living the fast paced life) because I know that I’m
exactly the opposite of that. EDIT: With talking further to Girl B, we may be
more alike than I originally thought, but most of the other things still
stand. If anything now, I’m going to
have to really penetrate her heart before anything could even begin to happen.
However, I guess the real challenging thing about it is
that, A lives halfway across the country (at a different school), while the
other one (B), I see almost everyday at work
The time does pass by faster with B and I do enjoy the company don’t get
me wrong. If anything I can still see us
as being friends, definitely, but honestly I AM looking for more than just a
pretty face/body.
I am looking for someone that I can be friends with first
and still be able to make a connection with them somewhat romantically. Slow is
definitely more desired at this point, but I keep seeing myself going into a
constant circle of maybe yes, or maybe not.
Not really sure whether I need to be even worried about this right now,
but then again, why shouldn’t I? Only
time will tell, where the wheel will stop turning. After all, it's not truly in MY control, isn't it?
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